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Friday, April 7th, 2006

Time:6:59 pm.
done with this journal ya'll

new one is here and it's gonna be friends only

http://lalapelosa.livejournal.com/
2 waving from such great heights

Time:10:47 am.
a lot of people have really fucked me over this week

but more have been absolutely amazing
waving from such great heights

Thursday, April 6th, 2006

Time:7:14 pm.
where did he come from?

i'm starting to remember that things always happen for a reason, and the reason is usually good
waving from such great heights

Friday, March 31st, 2006

Time:6:56 pm.
I wrote a letter on a nothing day
I asked somebody "Could you send my letter away?"
"You are too young to put all of your hopes in just one envelope"

I said goodbye to someone that I love
It's not just me, I tell you it's the both of us
And it was hard
Like coming off the pills that you take to stay happy

Someone above has seen me do alright
Someone above is looking with a tender eye
Upon his face, you may think you're alone but you may think again

If I could do just one near perfect thing I'd be happy
They'd write it on my grave, or when they scattered my ashes
On second thoughts I'd rather hang about and be there with my best friend
If he wants me

And far away somebody read the letter
He condescends to read the words I wrote about him
And if he smiles, it's no more than a genius deserves
For all his curious nerve and his passion

I'm going deaf, you're growing melancholy
Things fall apart, I don't know why we bother at all
But life is good and "It's always worth living at least for a while"

If I could do just one near perfect thing I'd be happy
They'd write it on my grave, or when they scattered my ashes
On second thoughts I'd rather hang about and be there with my best friend
If he wants me

If you think to yourself "What should I do now?"
Then take the baton, girl, you better run with it
There is no point in standing in the past cause it's over and done with

I took a book and went into the forest
I climbed the hill, I wanted to look down on you
But all I saw was twenty miles of wilderness so I went home
waving from such great heights

Thursday, March 30th, 2006

Time:1:35 pm.
Don't marry for love...marry for money
waving from such great heights

Tuesday, March 28th, 2006

Time:4:28 pm.
it's nice to be wanted again ;)

in other news, today wasn't as bad a day as i thought it would be...it had a rocky, sleep deprived start, but i am happy now because i get to go home for the weekend and i think i have a job at bubba gumps :)

i went into victoria's secret today to stall time before my interview, and at first, i was extremely depressed...but then this sudden surge of sexiness overcame me, and i realized that i didn't want to ban men from my life, i just wanted to tease them ;)

Each time you smile
It'll only last a while
Life may be scary
But it's only temporary...
ba da bo da, ba da bo da, ba da bo da ba da ba da baaaaaa
Everything in life
Is only for now...


Every day a little death
In the parlor, in the bed
In the curtians, in the silver
In the buttons, in the bread
Every day a little sting
In the heart and in the head
Every move and every breath
And you hardly feel a thing
Brings a perfect little death
I'm before him on my knees
And he kisses me
He assumes I'll loose my reason
And I do
Men are stupid
Men are vain
Love's disgusting
Love's insane
A humiliating business
Every day a little death
In the looks and in the acts
In the murmurs, in the gestures
In the pauses, in the sighs
Every day a little dies
In the looks and in the lies
Every move and every breath
And you hardly feel a thing
Brings a perfect little...
Death
1 waving from such great heights

Time:5:18 am.
so it's about 5 am and i am still awake...i think i will be for a while

pete gave me an adderal...my first encounter and wow...just wow

i took my first night ride down to Waterfront park last night...it was so peaceful, watching the black water and smelling the sea air

im trying to figure out what i should wear to Miss Trudy's rastafarian birthday party...if i should even still go...something tells me it would be a bad idea

i spent a lot of time with dana tonight...we watched wedding crashers with stephen

i havent eaten all day and now i have hunger pains and cotton mouth

my first all nighter...eeeee
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Monday, March 27th, 2006

Time:6:49 pm.
it's so hard...i feel so much pain and anguish and jealousy and it's taking over my life

it's so hard not to pick up that phone and call him and try and talk to him...it's so hard to remember that just this time last week, we were getting ready to go to the movies...it's so hard to know that i can't talk to him for a long time and even then it may be fruitless

i just wish everything could go back to normal...but i have to give it time...it's the time that hurts the most

and im going crazy because no one around here is hiring except the strip club and i'd really rather not resort to that

i miss so much...and i fucked everything up, it was all my fault, i'm a stupid idiot and i hate what i did

how long?...how long till i can come to terms with this and be at peace?...how long till i'm no longer a roller coaster of emotions, flip flopping from being fine with it and then going back to being sad and regretful?

i really need counseling but the fucking school counselors aren't here after five...fuckers
waving from such great heights

Time:1:42 pm.
Oh life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye cause you can't go back
Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
And this feelin' that I can go back


and now, to bubba gumps :)
waving from such great heights

Sunday, March 26th, 2006

Time:10:38 pm.
March 26, 2006 You dislike bad feeling and tension at the best of times, so you may not enjoy the celestial atmosphere today, as it is possible that it will bring up something that has needed to be dealt with between you and your partner for some time. However, although you may not feel comfortable in expressing some of your deeper reservations, you will ultimately both discover a sense of peace.

man this really all just sucks
waving from such great heights

Time:7:10 pm.
the wind is strong

but i am stronger

and there is always stripping haha ;)
waving from such great heights

Time:3:02 pm.
my heart has officially been broken
waving from such great heights

Saturday, March 25th, 2006

Time:7:45 pm.
you know, i really do have great friends :)
1 waving from such great heights

Time:2:48 pm.
i just dropped $123 on a magnolia body scrub and massage at Charleston Place Spa

and it was fantastic
waving from such great heights

Friday, March 24th, 2006

Time:8:15 pm.
Tell me where you've gone
Could I meet you later on
Should I Let you be
I guess I'm letting you go
It's hard but it's just like they say
You had to be so
Hard on my heart and my head
But I left our past
On the telegraph
Telephone
Tell a friend I'm grievin'
Lift it up
And tear it down
See what you believe in
'Cause he's in me
Tell me where you've gone
Could I meet you later on
Should I
Let you be (I'm gonna let you)
I guess I'm letting you go
It's hard but it's just like they say
You had to be so
Hard on my heart and my head
But I left our past
On the telegraph
Am I just waistin' time
Trying to lose your mind
How do these things get done
So do you think it's true
When it comes out of you
Aren't we the lucky ones
Telegraph
Telephone
Tell a friend I'm leavin'
Cause he's in me
Tell me where you've gone
Could I meet you later on
Should I
Let you be I'm gonna
waving from such great heights

Thursday, March 23rd, 2006

Time:5:22 pm.
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP
waving from such great heights

Time:12:03 pm.
it's time to move on
waving from such great heights

Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006

Time:6:59 pm.
finally, i am making my family proud for a non-bs reason

college is definitely going to be a good experience
3 waving from such great heights

Tuesday, March 21st, 2006

Time:10:16 pm.
disappointed

in myself
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Monday, March 20th, 2006

Time:1:06 pm.
my life is becoming very routine, once again

i don't know what it is...the fluctuating weather?...the changing attitudes of friends?...the lack of activity in my boyfriend's "cave"?...the omnipresent feeling that in a month, I will be back on Long Island, and then what?

i desperately need some sort of change to occur or i think i might go crazy but i have no clue as to where to start

i really feel as though i should just study abroad for the whole year next year, but would that really change anything?...i'd probably just have the same problems over there, except i wouldn't know the language

i dont know...im bored...im irritable...im constantly cranky and frustrated and i dont want to be like that anymore...nothing is like it used to be...and i know times change but what the hell do i have to do to myself to enjoy life again?

i have made too many bad connections and once i break them, i have nothing
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